Jean Ann Williams

About Jean Ann Williams

Jean Ann Williams lives in Southern Oregon with her husband Jim. Although one of their children has passed on to the Great Beyond, their two remaining children have blessed them with thirteen grandchildren, their Baker’s Dozen. Jean Ann keeps up two blogs: the first is about the writing life Jean Ann Williams: Author, and Love Truth where she writes of how God continues to encourage and bless her after her son’s suicide in 2004.

Sir Wallace, a Gift from God

Sir Wallace, a Gift from God

When my son, Joshua, died on March 16, 2004, I discovered God cares about even the smallest matters. Up until then, I’d always been told God did not have time nor cared about giving us little blessings. They either happened or not. God was not involved in these matters. But I had been puzzled all […]

The End of the Rope

The End of the Rope

When my husband and I lost our son, Joshua, to suicide, we searched scriptures to answer the questions created by Joshua’s death. Attending church services was no longer enough to sustain us each week. We had come to the end of our rope. This was where our faith in Jesus, such as it was at […]

My Mother Named Me, and God Knows Me

My Mother Named Me, and God Knows Me

I’m the first born of nine children, and my mother gave me her dad’s name but spelled Gene. I love my mother, who passed away twenty-two years ago, but my mother struggled with addictions and insanity. She was not the model of womanhood. But God gave me several women in my life as examples of […]

More About Jesus

More About Jesus

This song title came to me recently, and I believe I’ve had too many frustrations because I don’t know more about Jesus. This line of thought hit even harder when I read Hinds Feet on High Places by Hannah Hurnard. In one scene the character, Much Afraid, has looked, “into the abyss of horror, into […]

Avoid the “Why Me” Of Loss  by Jean Ann Williams

Avoid the “Why Me” Of Loss by Jean Ann Williams

Most of us have experienced the loss of a loved one. Some have even suffered close losses such as children, a grandparent, parent, or sibling. We wonder “Why us?” Why does one family seem to go happily about life with those closest to them still here on earth, while others lose people they dearly love? […]

If Comfort Does Not Come

If Comfort Does Not Come

For from day to day men came to David to help him, until there was a great army, like an army of God. 1 Chronicles 12:22 ESV Do well-meaning people encourage you to “get over” the loss of a loved one? If we’re in prayer about our loss, God will show us when we’re ready […]

To Lighten Our Way

To Lighten Our Way

Many of us look back on our lives and stand in awe at the trials and sorrows God has allowed us to experience. I believe the purpose for this is so we may admire what God has done for the betterment of our souls. He has not taken us through these heartaches so we can […]

More About Jesus

More About Jesus

As I read a scene in Hannah Hurnard’s book Hinds Feet on High Places, I was moved to tears. In the scene the main character, Much-Afraid, looked, “into an abyss of horror into an existence in which there was no Shepherd at all.” This is when Much-Afraid said, “‘Shepherd,’ she shrieked, ‘Shepherd! Help me! Where […]

Had I Seen a Spiritual Being?

Had I Seen a Spiritual Being?

My heart sank to my toes, when I found out our family had to move. My husband Jim discovered he could never retire with full benefits in the current state we lived in. I knew without asking we’d have to sell my son, Joshua’s, rabbit business. We couldn’t take over two hundred bunnies to live […]

God Encouraged Me with Luke Five

God Encouraged Me with Luke Five

For three years I have not been feeling well. In fact, I’ve grown increasingly worse. I’m seeing a second doctor in less than two years because my first doctor told me he no longer knew how to help me. My hope was all but gone. Is this how my son Joshua felt, when he was […]

God’s Newest Blessing After Suicide

God’s Newest Blessing After Suicide

God continues to bless me, even eleven years after my son Joshua died by suicide. The loss is still great, but not horrific as the first four years. I still mourn for Joshua, but I don’t cry daily as I once did. I find too, that my grieving has expanded to include the grandchildren he […]

An Analogy of What God Did for Me

An Analogy of What God Did for Me

Recently, my smallest hen, Little Mutton, became too solitary, dosing way too often in the hen yard. She acted fine physically, ran well, and seemed lively when I woke her from her sleep. But, something wasn’t right. After keeping my eye on her for a few days, the morning came when she didn’t venture out […]

Does God Hear Our Requests?

Does God Hear Our Requests?

My son died by suicide eleven years ago on March 16, 2004. I suffered emotional agony, and after a time it felt like real physical pain. My stomach and my head ached. My skin no longer fit, and I thought it would suffocate me. Worst of all, my heart hurt within my chest and I […]

My Footsteps Slip Not

My Footsteps Slip Not

Most of us have lost a loved one at some point in our lives. They’ve crossed over into the spirit realm to the Great Beyond and evade our grasp. We long to see them, that’s for sure, and our hearts feel they will never heal. There’s another loss that is almost as devastating: the loss […]

What’s Our Security Blanket?

What’s Our Security Blanket?

We all want to feel secure. As babies security meant: cuddling, eating, and hearing Mama’s voice. What makes us secure has extended as we grew from that baby of long ago. This is not wrong if we choose the right securities. The most important being: “Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to […]

A Long Season in the Wilderness

A Long Season in the Wilderness

Joshua, our youngest child, was diagnosed at the age of fifteen with a rare form of rheumatoid arthritis. Our happy boy turned into a philosophical teen while the disease slowly disabled him, thwarted his dreams, and spiraled him into depression. One cold evening soon after Joshua began freshman classes at our local college, we sat […]