Turning Back

Turning Back

There’s the joke most everyone knows about how men hate to stop and ask for directions even when they are hopelessly lost. I guess it’s not so much a joke as it is a truism that people joke about. Men in particular seem to struggle when they can’t find their way. What about you?

“Show me your ways, O Lord, teach me your paths; guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long.” —Psalm 25:4–5

Recently I found myself going in the direction I thought God was leading me to but shortly after starting down the new path, things just didn’t feel right. Something was off and I found myself feeling far away from God and not at peace. I found myself wrestling with what to do. I liked the road I was on; I had wanted to go down this road for years and when everything had fallen into place, I thought I was following God’s will. Yet none of this felt like I was in God’s will. The confusion and heartache resulted in angst, worry and stress that my body was not handling well. My mind felt this disconnect, my body felt it, my heart knew. I was lost. I had inadvertently taken a wrong turn.

The message seemed clear that I had taken the incorrect road but I didn’t want to ask for directions and my pride wouldn’t allow me to admit I had made a mistake. Have you ever felt like this…like you were being led by God in a new direction only to realize you were now lost yet didn’t want to ask for His guidance or worse yet, you were asking but couldn’t discern it?

People often share how you need to turn off all the noise to truly hear from God. I know it has been true in my life that I hear best from God when I’m in His word, but this time even that didn’t work. I wrestled and wrestled with what to do. I had headaches, lost sleep and was miserable.

Finally I realized God was speaking and had been speaking, I just didn’t like what He was saying! You see, I knew stopping the current path meant walking away from a dream, it meant walking away from a good deal of money and it meant admitting I had made a mistake. It took me a while to work up the courage to acknowledge and accept all of those things. Like being lost, it takes courage to ask for help. It takes courage to stop and turn the car around accepting that you got off the right road.

Once I accepted all of those things, stopped and turned back to the path I had been on, my angst disappeared and the feeling of being back in God’s presence returned. I am home again.  So today I encourage you to seek God’s will and His presence in all you do and when you’re not feeling either, know that it just might mean you need to stop and turn back. He will be there when you do because He will never leave you nor forsake you. You are His.

“Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you.” —Psalm 9:10

 

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Tina Dorward About Tina Dorward

Tina Dorward is a fully-devoted follower of Christ who loves spending time with her husband and two sons and volunteering at her local church. In her free time she reads, writes, paints and cooks.

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