“Help My Unbelief”

“Help My Unbelief”

“I hope for the best, but expect the worst. Then I’m not disappointed,” Mom used to joke. We all knew it was just a joke because our mother was a woman of prayer.

When my father was nearing the end of his life, I stayed with Mom for a short time, sharing her bed in the motel room we had rented. I remember her wearing her silky pink nightgown as she knelt by her bed praying for Dad and other family members. It is one of my sweetest memories.

I have often heard folks say, “Just trust in God. He will take care of you.” That’s right. God will take care of us, even when we don’t necessarily trust in Him as we should, because He is God.

But faith in God is not simple. Sometimes it’s tough work.

I accepted the Lord as a young child. I trusted simply, and believed with all my heart that God would answer my prayer. One time I was at Good News Club, a Bible club led by a woman who made beautiful shell jewelry. We were at the home of a woman who liked to buy that jewelry. Our lesson was about giving our heart, our lives and our money to Jesus, because He gave so much to us.

I had a nickel in my pocket. I wanted to buy some candy, but changed my mind when I saw Aunt Evelyn’s jewelry. There was a beautiful pin I was sure my mother would love, but it cost fifty cents. I didn’t have the fifty cents, but I was sure Aunt Evelyn would save it for me if I asked nicely. I made up my mind to ask her after Good News Club was over.

Then the teacher taught the lesson, and in my heart I had no doubt that the nickel I treasured belonged to Jesus. I struggled the rest of the class, but in the end I put the nickel in the offering bowl. I knew it was the right thing to do, even if it hurt to give up money I rarely had.

Dejected, I took one last look at Aunt Evelyn’s beautiful jewelry, and dragged myself home. We lived on a gravel road about a half mile from where the Bible club was held. As I walked, I considered the fact that I didn’t get spending money very often, and probably wouldn’t have a chance to get another nickel any time soon, let alone fifty cents, but I prayed about it. I really wanted that shell pin for Mama.

Scuffing my feet in the dirt and gravel on Hatchery Road, I kicked at something that glittered in the dirt. I stopped, bent down, and looked closer. I pushed more dirt away from the object, and discovered a shiny half dollar. I picked it up, told my sister I’d be back in just a little while, whirled around and ran all the way back to Good News Club. Aunt Evelyn was just getting into her car after packing up her jewelry and the other materials she had used at Bible Club. Probably she had sold a piece or two to Mrs. Coventry. Within minutes, I had the cherished pin and a ride home, so I wasn’t even late for supper.

Even as a child, I struggled in my faith. I believe God rewarded me for giving my nickel to Him and trusting that somehow my mom would have the pin.

“Lord, I believe. Help thou my unbelief.” Mark 9:24b

Be Sociable, Share!
Bettilu Davies About Bettilu Davies

Bettilu Davies is a wife, mother, grandmother, and great grandmother. She has authored six published books, first writing fiction for children and teens and recently branching into adult Christian fiction. She has taught piano since 1968 and enjoys reading, crocheting, knitting, paper art, and painting in oils, acrylics and water color.

Comments

  1. Bettilu Davies says:

    I read a book by Carolyne Aarsen this week. In one chapter one of the main characters said he didn’t pray because He hadn’t decided what he wanted. His grandmother told him that God is not a vending machine. We need to be close to Him and seek His will, whatever it is. God will always give us His best.

    [Reply]

  2. Laurie Driesen says:

    What a great story Bettilu, thanks for sharing it. God is so faithful, even giving you 10 times what you had given up for Him! And now you’re sharing what He did for you so it’s multiplied even more!

    [Reply]

  3. Thank you for that story. The more we testify to others of God’s faithfulness in our lives, the more opportunities people of the world have to step into faith for themselves. Taste and see that the Lord is good!

    [Reply]

Speak Your Mind

*