I gave my life to Christ on March 18, 1990. My life changed dramatically. I was no longer the girl who wanted to live in a black painted bedroom, introverted, withdrawn. Christ changed my life. I did a complete 180! My mom, who is not a believer, bought me a Bible. It was King James. But I devoured it! The week I gave my life to Jesus was spring break. I spent most of that time in my room, studying the Word of God. I prayed like never before. I went from a girl who longed to be adopted to a girl who finally got her wish. I was adopted by the King of the Universe! I ran to God with complete abandon! When I went back to school, I spoke of Him often to my friends, who, in turn, decided they did not desire to be my friend. I spent my last year in Junior High alone because of that. But that was ok with me. Jesus filled that loneliness.
As the years went on, my love for Jesus didn’t disintegrate but it was more hidden. I still spent time most days praying and reading His word. But the fire didn’t stay lit as strong as it once had. I think I allowed the things of this world to change my focus. Instead of being fully on Christ, my focus settled else where.
Now, as I near 41 years old, my focus is where it should be: on Christ alone. He holds the number of my days in the palm of His hand. He holds my family and friends in His hands, as well. I don’t need to worry about what tomorrow may bring. He’s been there. He’s already seen it. I don’t need to look back with regret and live in those days, either. He’s forgiven me and nudges me to move on.
“For to me, to live is Christ,” Paul states in Philippians. I used to hold that verse dear to my heart, and let everyone know it. I live for Jesus. I don’t have to shout it from the rooftops. I’m hoping my actions will shout it for me. How? By loving my husband and children, by living out God’s word, by sharing my heart with those around me and in my sphere of influence, and by doing what God has called me to do.
As the New Year approaches, may our lives be that of Christ. May we live for Him daily. May we heed His calling on our lives and focus on Him and Him alone.
Happy New Year, Dear readers and friends! And thank you for allowing me to be apart of this journey with you!