Psalm 46:10 “Be still and know that I am God.”
Sometimes I don’t know what God is telling me. I try to figure it out, but sometimes I just don’t get it.
We have had a rather tumultuous year. Because of circumstances in the life of one of my children, there have been a lot of emotional telephone calls. I tried to help as much as I could, but sometimes I felt weighed down, blaming myself for not having all the answers. My child understood, but I still wished I could do more to help.
Then there was the chaos leading up to the elections. I prayed for months for God’s choice, knowing that He could lead the voters in the right direction. As the election drew near, I felt my tension increase, until the day before the election when my tension came to an abrupt halt. I realized the election was in God’s hands, and whether the person I preferred won or not, God was in control.
That’s probably when the above verse started popping into my head, starting on the night when I couldn’t sleep and was praying for everybody I could think of. I was hoping the Bible verse would lull me to sleep.
It would have been fine it I’d only had internal reminders, but then it showed up in other people’s blogs, on Christmas cards and in emails from friends. I started worrying. Was something big going to come into my life? Was God preparing me for some calamity?
I had been wearing myself out with some pre-Christmas projects. I decided that God probably just wanted me to rest, so I took three days, doing minimal housework and tried to relax. I was bored out of my skull. I prayed again and realized being still didn’t mean doing nothing. It meant trusting God whatever was happening and whatever I was doing.
Then we had car problems. I started worrying about the cost and the hit to our savings account, and I prayed that it wouldn’t be as bad as we thought.
“Be still…be still….be still.”
I don’t know what’s ahead for us. 2016 has definitely been a difficult year. I don’t know what 2017 will be like. I hope life will be better, but there’s no guarantee. What I can rely on is the rock solid fact that God is God. I have to know that, not just parrot it because it is a famous Bible quote. I have to believe it and trust it and stop writing now, because again it is time to “be still.”