This was my reaction after the phone call of all phone calls.
My husband, daughter, and I lived in our rental house for almost eight years. The whole time we have been in this ministry. My husband is a pastor, and that kind of stability makes a house become a home.
Then, the phone call. The caller id showed that the caller was our landlord. Soon after my hello, she launched into the reason for her call.
“Listen, I’ve decided to get out of the rental business. I have now sold all of my properties except two. I will need to move into your house in thirty days to prepare it for selling.”
At first my mouth wouldn’t move. Had she just said we would need to vacate our home in thirty days? I mumbled something I can’t even remember now. After ending the call, I stumbled into the living room and plopped onto the couch. My husband eyed me.
“You’re not going to believe this.” I proceeded to spell out to him what the landlord had said.
Mu hubby stood up, slipped on his shoes, and called to our daughter. We hopped into the car and he raised the garage door. “Let’s pray. God, we weren’t expecting this but nothing is a surprise to You. Give us wisdom and direction.” Then he backed out and drove around our community while I scribbled phone numbers from sales and rentals we passed along the way.
That evening as I laid my head on my pillow, I couldn’t help the myriad of emotions going through me. God, what are You doing? And, how are we going to find a place and move all of our belongings in thirty days? Not to mention the fact that we will have to cancel our vacation since it is right in the middle of those thirty days.
Within the next few days, a Christian speaker spoke on not giving up and a scripture kept echoing in my head. You may be familiar with it – 2 Corinthians 4:16-18. Let me quote this passage here for you from The Message version of the Bible.
“So we’re not giving up. How could we! Even though on the outside it often looks like things are falling apart on us, on the inside, where God is making new life, not a days goes by without his unfolding grace. These hard times are small potatoes compared to the coming good times, the lavish celebration prepared for us. There’s far more here than meets the eye. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can’t see now will last forever.”
When I returned to my prayer closet time, I apologized. God, I’m sorry. I don’t know what You are doing, but I’ve learned I can trust You. I’m not always to know what is happening. There’s some reason we needed to move. Don’t let me miss any opportunities this brings.
The Corinthians passage includes a phrase that reminded me of the theme of this blog: “…where God is making new life…” Even though it looked like things were just falling apart around me and inside of me, I can trust that God continues to create in me a new life. Who knows that this struggle will not gain for me some lesson He needs me to grasp?
I chuckled a bit at the hard times being compared to small potatoes. But, you know, in comparison to my heavenly home, everything pales.
Through Paul’s words in these verses God was trying to refocus me. I tend to get blinders and only see the situation falling apart when God prefers I use those blinders to focus on Him. Just as the last couple of lines in the Corinthians passage state – what I see today will pass but I must focus on God through faith (Paula’s version).
Now, I still do not like to move. I’ve confessed that to the Lord. But, I’m seeing this as a part of the wonderful adventure I signed on to when I gave my life to God and married a man in the ministry.
Sweet brothers and sisters in Christ, stay focused on Christ in all situations. We can trust Him!