Being Bold

Being Bold

So often in my life I have felt afraid, fearful of just about everything. My childhood left me with anxieties about many things. And yet, I’ve often been told how “fearless” I seem by people. Just recently someone said they envied my boldness, going forward fearlessly. They wished they could be like me, they said.

My instinct was to say, “I hope you are not like me!” I would hate for anyone else to have the fears and anxieties I deal with, to have the memories I have, the insecurities… I would hate for anyone to live And yet, when I stepped back from myselfthrough the pain.

And yet, when I stepped back from myself I heard their compliment in a different way. I understood that what they saw in me was not my fears and painful childhood, it was instead God’s love. His spirit, His love, made me bold. It helps me move forward in a way I never could on my own. It helps me go forward knowing that even if I fail, I have Him at my side.

I used to wish people could see my fragile heart. I wish they would treat me with the care that I need. I think back to office situations where men treated me poorly, or boyfriends who thought abusive behavior was okay… I used to wish that someone could just see me as I was. Why didn’t they? But I take responsibility. I put up a front because I thought it would protect me. I was young. Now, I know that I don’t need that front, I have God’s protection. I always did, I just never realized it.

So if someone thinks I’m bold now? I’ll take that compliment, and lift it up to God, who has given me hope.

 

Therefore, since we have such a hope, we are very bold.
2 Corinthians 3:12

 

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Cherie Burbach About Cherie Burbach

Cherie Burbach is the founder of Putting on the New. She is a poet, mixed media artist, and freelance writer. She’s written for About.com, NBC/Universal, Match.com, Christianity Today, and more. Her latest book is: Art and Faith: Mixed Media Art With a Faith-Filled Message. For more, check out her website.

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  1. So agree, and I liked what you said about allowing the compliment to be about God and what He has done. It’s easier to take those types of compliments!

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